King Lear
In my last year at Auckland Grammar School, I was introduced to Shakespeare's tragedy, King Lear, by an inspiring teacher, Owen Lewis.
He had a cunning way of immersing us in Shakespeare: we started reading the play on the first day of the year, and studied it all that week, and then wrote an assignment on it. Had there been a film of the play available in 1950, I am sure he would have arranged for us to see it, because he used films in his syllabus at other times. When I became a teacher of sixth form English I regularly used to start the year by taking the pupils to a film and setting an assignment on it on the first day of the year.
I remember him pointing to this line (Pray you undo this button) and commenting that it showed the depth of dependency that the old king had sunk to, immediately before his death. This request appears four or five lines before the final curtain.
Owen Lewis was in his mid-twenties at that stage, having just returned from service in the Air Force during the war. So he was only about ten years older than us students. Neither he nor we had any idea of what old age was like when you were experiencing it.
In practice, getting older is a case of slowing down. Lots of little tasks become slower or harder or both. Dressing and undressing are among the most frustrating. So "Pray you undo this button" comes to my mind often at such times, although it is doing the buttons up that causes the greatest frustration. No wonder clothing for really ancient people is all held together with velcro!
So was Lear just old, or was he also suffering from dementia, brought on by the deadly feud within his family, between his two older daughters and their youngest sister? He certainly has trouble remembering who his old friends were when they appear.
Both the slowing of old age, and the extra handicaps of dementia, cause one's world to become gradually narrower and narrower; because ordinary daily life tasks take so much longer, one cannot attend to a lot of wider interests, no matter how involved one may have been at earlier times, and no matter how much one may want to.
And I find myself becoming less and less comfortable about shifting my attention from one absorbing task and moving on to another. If the shift is caused by other people intruding, that is OK, but it is having the initiative to move my own attention from this work I am doing now over to something else, leaving the first unfinished, when I know it is time!
And King Lear's world has shrunk. He suggests to his remaining daughter that they will live "like birds in the cage".
Hang on to your outgoing life as long as you can!